All along I've been very focused on getting through this process. Today, I'm filled with an overwhelming feeling of 'what if this doesn't work?' I haven't let myself think of that a lot. The counselor asked us that question, but we were so far from actually going through it that I wasn't that worried. We have a 49% chance of it working. That's HUGE compared to the 9% they gave us when we first tried IVF with my own eggs. I'm less nervous about a potential baby having serious defects since we're using a younger (30 year old) donor. When we used my 42 year old eggs, I was freaking out that we'd have a baby with some type of syndrome. As sad as I am that I won't be able to have a child that's biologically mine, this is a bonus. So, what if this doesn't work? I don't know.
Migraines are still tearing my head apart. Usually it lets up by now. Very unpleasant, to say the least. I know it's the Estrogen. Can't wait to see what side-effect horrors are lurking around the corner with the Progesterone.
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